Everything will be okay.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
Graduation 2012
A couple days ago, Ashley graduated from UCLA. I am so entirely proud of her. I know she's been transformed here at UCLA and I know this school has done her good. Although it has worked her ass off and stressed her out in ways I have never seen, it has also provided her life with meaning through outlets such as Unicamp.
I know something that pains her is that Dad never got the chance to see his daughter graduate from such a prestigious university. When Mark graduated, he didn't bother walking the stage and my parents didn't even know he graduated until they mailed home his diploma. Dad could have had the chance to see one of his children walk the stage wearing that black gown and have her name called out. I know he would have to so happy and I know it would have made him proud.
I remember my high school graduation. I could possibly have been one of the worst days of my life. I remember crying so much because he wasn't there to see me graduate and he died not knowing that I was going to attend a university. It killed me so much inside. Being there at Ashley's graduation made me extremely emotional not only for her, but for my future.
I'm scared to graduate. I'm scared of breaking down again because Dad wouldn't be there and would never have known of my accomplishments. This fear is also demonstrated when I think about my future wedding and not being able to have a "Father-Daughter" dance. I've planned it out in my head to be replaced with a "Brother-Sister" dance, but with a graduation, you can't change that.
I don't want to graduate. I'm too scared.
I know something that pains her is that Dad never got the chance to see his daughter graduate from such a prestigious university. When Mark graduated, he didn't bother walking the stage and my parents didn't even know he graduated until they mailed home his diploma. Dad could have had the chance to see one of his children walk the stage wearing that black gown and have her name called out. I know he would have to so happy and I know it would have made him proud.
I remember my high school graduation. I could possibly have been one of the worst days of my life. I remember crying so much because he wasn't there to see me graduate and he died not knowing that I was going to attend a university. It killed me so much inside. Being there at Ashley's graduation made me extremely emotional not only for her, but for my future.
I'm scared to graduate. I'm scared of breaking down again because Dad wouldn't be there and would never have known of my accomplishments. This fear is also demonstrated when I think about my future wedding and not being able to have a "Father-Daughter" dance. I've planned it out in my head to be replaced with a "Brother-Sister" dance, but with a graduation, you can't change that.
I don't want to graduate. I'm too scared.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Unattractive
I'm trying to be mean but mostly honest.
Confidence can pull your weight but sometimes, confidence just does not cover it. If you're unattractive, you're unattractive. Please don't believe that you can acquire model/porno status in a girlfriend. Lower your standards and maybe you'll find someone who can appreciate your.... money.
I don't know whether to be annoyed or just laugh at your ignorance. This defines the line between a boy and a man.
Confidence can pull your weight but sometimes, confidence just does not cover it. If you're unattractive, you're unattractive. Please don't believe that you can acquire model/porno status in a girlfriend. Lower your standards and maybe you'll find someone who can appreciate your.... money.
I don't know whether to be annoyed or just laugh at your ignorance. This defines the line between a boy and a man.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Friday, June 1, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Zip Away
Yesterday, the little poop and I went on a 7 hour trip. He took out a zip car and we drove to Capitola to take pictures for his project. While he took pictures at the beach, I strolled along the cute beach-side stores. I bought some taffy and wanted to check out this $1 jewelry store but it was closed. :( I was super sad and disappointed.
We then decided to drive to San Jose so he could take pictures in Valley Fair and Santana Row. With a Jamba Juice to boost his energy, he went and took pictures and I walked around and followed him at some points. He thinks that me following him is boring to me but it feels oh so fun! It's like an adventure with an obscure purpose. I hunt down places for him ho take pictures, he approves or not, and I hunt some more. I get to walk around and explore while being with him! I don't like to shop in person but I do like to observe in person. People watching is always fun.
In any case, I got us dinner and we drove back JUST IN 2 MINUTES LATE TIME! :)
RUSHED like crazy but we made it.
I love spending time with him. It's very relaxing and exciting at the same time. Just being able to smell him (and often his smelly feet) is enough satisfaction for me.
Plus, I walked away with a bag full of salt water taffy so I am definitely very very happy.
The bestie and I will be checking out the $1 jewelry store again this Friday. IT BETTER BE OPEN!! >:(
We then decided to drive to San Jose so he could take pictures in Valley Fair and Santana Row. With a Jamba Juice to boost his energy, he went and took pictures and I walked around and followed him at some points. He thinks that me following him is boring to me but it feels oh so fun! It's like an adventure with an obscure purpose. I hunt down places for him ho take pictures, he approves or not, and I hunt some more. I get to walk around and explore while being with him! I don't like to shop in person but I do like to observe in person. People watching is always fun.
In any case, I got us dinner and we drove back JUST IN 2 MINUTES LATE TIME! :)
RUSHED like crazy but we made it.
I love spending time with him. It's very relaxing and exciting at the same time. Just being able to smell him (and often his smelly feet) is enough satisfaction for me.
Plus, I walked away with a bag full of salt water taffy so I am definitely very very happy.
The bestie and I will be checking out the $1 jewelry store again this Friday. IT BETTER BE OPEN!! >:(
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