Unexpected

I did not expect myself to be crying alone in the comfort of my own room at 10:14am today. But then again, I did not expect myself to click on the video you made. And I also did not expect to see myself in your video, or the people we mutually knew, or even the adventures we went on. I did not expect to feel unexpected.

Dear best friend,
Is it selfish of me to secretly hope you don't make it to any of the schools you applied to because I really don't want you to leave? Yes, it kind of is. But honestly, I really do hope that. I didn't realize how much I'd be missing you until I watched the video you made. It was similar to the feeling that crept up when during my dad's funeral, I didn't realize how much I had missed you until I hugged you and started tearing up.

Honestly, you're the greatest friend I could have ever asked for. I love the fact that we don't have to see each other every single day of the week in order to call ourselves "Best Friends". Best friends don't hang out around the clock. We can call ourselves best friends because no matter how far we are from each other or how long we haven't talked to each other, we still jump right back to where we left off when we meet up again.

Since this summer, I have never felt so close to you. I can open myself up and tell you things I can't tell anyone else. I value your judgment in nearly all aspects of life. I value your presences in every waking minute we're together. I value the moments we shared together with each other and with others. But most of all, I value you.

If you do, in fact, transfer elsewhere, please know that I love you and that I will always be here for you. You are and will always be my best friend and I will never ever forget what we shared. I look forward to the future when I can watch you from the seats of a movie theater and marvel at how amazing you are and always will be. I'm so proud of how far you've come and I am prepared to be yet even more proud of you as you move forward in life.

I love you Maithy!

Standing under the umbrella,
Jenn