November 2, 2011

It's been two years since Dad passed away and it still hurts just as much as it hurt back then. It's incredibly hard not to cry. It's weird how I can go the whole day with a huge smile but I'm dying to cry on the inside.

It's hard for people to really understand what I'm going through. My life is filled with regret, sorrow, disappointment, and complete emptiness. 

Ashley put up a picture of herself and Dad at her graduation from high school back in 2008. It's depressing knowing that I never had that moment with him. I tried to find a picture of just me and him. The only one I had was when I was 2- a moment I won't ever remember. It's a crazy disadvantage being the youngest. Moments with just him and I were never captured because we never had any. Regret is all I can feel right now-extremely painful regret.