Life is fragile.
Life should not be taken away from a beautiful soul at such a young age.
Yesterday, I received a text from Ashley notifying me that a childhood scout friend of mine had just passed away. I was in shock. It was surreal.
Shirley Ngo.
The most beautiful person I have ever met. I do not exaggerate when I say this and I'm not trying to sugar coat things. She really was beautiful. In scouts, everyone knew her because she was a head turner. But not just that, she had the most beautiful personality. She was always smiling and always helping out others. She could make friends with anyone and never had an ounce of hatred in her.
I remember meeting her when I first joined scouting at age 5. She was really nice to me and always answered any questions I had. I remember her always pinching my cheeks and telling me that I was cute. As we both grew up and still attended scouts, I remember following her at one camping trip to set up for the big game event. She would joke around about how the little cub scouts had crushes on me.
I always admired her. She was so beautiful and was a magnet to all personalities. She was always willing to help others and never complained about anything. Her smile...goodness, her smile.... it could probably bring about world peace.
In hearing of her passing, I'm deeply saddened. She was too young-barely mid-twenties. She never got the chance to do things we all plan to do in the future-get married, have kids, travel the world, grow old. It's not fair...it's really not.
I'm so saddened for her family. I cannot imagine what her four other siblings and her parents are going through right now. I know we all go through or will eventually go through a loss in our lifetime but our loss cannot compare to the loss of someone else. Pain is all different.
I'm afraid to attend her funeral. I'm afraid to see so many sad people. It scares me. It'll be the first funeral since my dad passed away and I'm not quite sure I'm ready for it. I want to be there for her family because I know how important it is to support others in a time of need. I need to be there for them...but I'm not sure I'm emotionally ready to handle seeing another person leave my life.
It really hurts thinking about this. It gives me chills every time and I find it hard to breathe. I'll miss her but she will never be forgotten. Scouts is my second family and she is a sister to me. Once a scout, always a scout.
Rest in Peace Shirley Ngo
May love help you find your way to the light.
