Target Practice

I'm glad I bought this martial arts target. It's very good at relieving my anger.

I've just finished two rounds of front snap kicks, side kicks, and roundhouses. I did a round of punches in riding stance and I held a back stance to a whole Rhianna song.

I'm slightly angered today. I feel as though there are so many assumptions made about that go unquestioned. Most automatically assume I'm a bitch, I'm grumpy, or that I'm going to snap at them at any moment. Up until about 3 hours ago, I believed them. I believed that I was this short tempered person who dominates this world and will kick and scream until she gets her way. But now, I'm convinced otherwise. It's their assumptions that are a catalyst to my emotions. They make me this way. They assume and don't question. I start to believe them and turn into what they assume me to be.

So now I'm really angry. Because I thought the people that knew me best-- the people that loved me most, the people that were supposed to be different from the rest-- would never assume anything like this of me. I was led to believe that they would question their assumptions and try to figure me out instead. But no. They're all the same as the rest of them. They're just as fucked up as the rest of these bitches who now mean no more to me than the dirt underneath my feet.

I'm better than this and I WILL not let these assumptions consume me any longer. This ends today.

This ends with the next kick I will perform, my specialty-- the Ax Kick.